I've been in love with her for two years but she never loved me back...............?

Okay, well this is a very confusing situation. 3 summers ago i met this amazing girl on a cruise. romance etc. I was 14 at the time.. i think... i was sure i loved someone for the first time. i mean iv dated many times b4, but iv never felt this way abouut her. we dated... then she dumped me, broke my heart, i was devistated, etc. anyway thats not the point.



anywho, the upcomming school year I met this girl, named gena. she was amazing, we hung out like we were best friends. we talked and talked every single day. I fell IN LOVE with her. i knew if need be, i would give my life for her, i loved her that much. sure ur prob. saying, yeah right, bull ****, you werent IN LOVE, im telling you, i was.



one night when i was home i got into a fight with one of my parents, i think... and i was very hurt so i talked to gena for some help, she tried calming me down etc. the next day, at school, she talked to me in private. asked if i was alright, etc. I loved the way she cared for me. Idk, i guess psycologicaly i would find more problems and desturbing things wrong with me, even though they werent really there, for her to care for me for, making up for the girl i met during the summer. I also knew that gena had a boy friend, but that didn't stop me.



By doing this i forced her further and further away untill the point where she just didn't want to speak to me anymore. i was once again devistated by this. Of course I tried to get her back, which just made everything worst, i did all i could do.



Now im 17 ....About hmm idk, a few months ago maybe, we started talking again online. she forgave me, i explained this whole story to her, etc. for the first time in 2 years she htalked to me about 3 weeks ago, maybe 2 weeks ago.



I mean I wish we could go back to the way we were, as like best friends.



Even though she is talking to me, it will never be the same. i've been asked out by many other ppl, it just couldn't do it. I still love her. I don't want to forget her, i can't get over her. It sounds like im a stalker or what ever, i am not.



This whole thing will deff. be with me forever. And will haunt me. What do you think i should do?I've been in love with her for two years but she never loved me back...............?I messaged you on myspace.

Far too much to say on here.



-Michael